I always get a good chuckle when I get comments and e-mails referring to the idea that I make things look easy, or that I am able to balance so many things. :) Let the record show that my house has been a complete disaster most of this week. And if I am being totally honest, when I focus on a project, something else takes the back burner—laundry, the dishes, the cleanliness of my toothbrush holder. So it's more like I am juggling things, not actually balancing them. I admit I have a bit of a disorder. I cannot NOT have a project. Even if I were to cut the strings on every creative project I have in my queue right now (which actually sounds insanely great on a superficial level), I would soon start to, well, kind of lose it. It's a funny thing, because when I am working too much I start to get a little
wackadoo. And I know it's time to slow things down. On days when Wes comes home and takes one look at me with "that" expression, I know I need to scale back. But if I have NO projects going on, I start to, well, kind of lose it. Even when faced with a totally incapacitated computer, I somehow found creative projects that HAD to be done. So there is a part of me that I cannot turn off. I will always be a little stressed (sometimes a LOT stressed) over the amount of work I am doing, and maniacally enjoying it at the same time.
I'm sounding delusional, I know. I am in a bit of a different situation than I have ever been in in my life. I am basically enduring the equivalent of single parenthood, thanks the miracle of Higher Education. But I am like a single mom who also works at home (yeah, it's self-inflicted work, but still). I don't know any other work-at-home single moms. But if you are one, let's be friends, because I am sure we can share some stories! Granted, I do get to actually see my husband at the tail end (or very early beginning) of most days. And when he
is home, we are usually distilling our
conversation down to the
essentials (which are usually
Wes's thesis, and the fact that Finn has
whittled his already picky palette down to breadish items). Sometimes we get to make out. If we're lucky. ;)
On top of the usual things I'm already doing, my schedule would
normally be spent doing entire-family related activities like eating meals together, and going places/hanging out together. Also, since we're on a crazy budget, I am not getting my hair done, or going out to the gym, or to lunch, or to the movies that often. This will resume in the future. But for now I am left with unusual pockets of time in which to start an insane number of personal projects. And Wes isn't really around to complain about it! If I decide I would rather lose my mind at the hand of the
blogosphere instead of the laundry basket, he just lets me go with it. He understands when I'm too tired to do the dishes, or
vacuum for 8 days. Every once in a while he comes in and says, "Wow, this house really
is a disaster." But he's just stating the obvious, not passing judgment (usually it's something I
texted him that morning, anyway). And then he goes and does the dishes that are starting to take on a life of their own.
After 14 hours at class and on set, working equally as hard as I have been all day. He helps when he can, and he doesn't complain. And sometimes he does nothing around the house because he has personal projects, too. And he affords me the same respect. Sure it means sometimes I'm in my
PJs all day. But for all he knows, maybe I JUST put them on before he came home....
heeeheee. We're a wild bunch over here at the Johnson household. Crazy—every last one of us.
So how DO I keep from slipping into insanity? I have a few things that I try to do on a regular basis. They work for me, and help keep some semblance of order in our lives:
#1. I try to do 1 load of laundry a day (thanks to my good friend Mel's advice). That is WASH and DRY one load. I don't fold, or iron, or put away. I throw it in a basket right out of the dryer. Then Sunday evening I sit and fold and iron and watch a movie or two. Which leads me right to #2.
#2. I TAKE SUNDAY OFF. It's the one day I don't work. I go to church, sometimes I take a NAP
(sweet bliss), I read, I watch movies. I make dinner. I relax. I call my Mom. And sometimes I do a little laundry (the folding, and ironing part). Yeah, I know it's
kind of like doing work. But I sit and watch my favorite
girly movies, and actually feel pretty good about domesticity. But really, other than my good friend
Lybi (who I greatly admire for doing so), I can't go a single day without doing
something around the house (even if it's small) because then the scale would tilt into a deep abyss. And we'd all go with it.
#3. I multi-task like NONE OTHER. I will load the dishwasher while I feed Maya lunch or dinner in her highchair in the kitchen, and sort through the mail. I eat lunch on the couch and check e-mail while watching last night's episode of The Office on Apple TV. Tonight I gave the kids a bath, and gave myself a pedicure at the same time. Try it! Soak your feet in their bubble bath. Then opt for nail polish brands that are quick-drying. I'm now sporting a plum pedicure.
#4. Sometimes I have groceries delivered. Did you know they only charge a $5 delivery fee, and they aren't allowed to accept tips? SCORE. (www.vons.com for those of you in
SoCal)
#5. In fact, much of my shopping is delivered. I order diapers from diapers.com (free delivery). If any personal shopping is going on, it's usually online. And Amazon.com has great deals on books in the "new and used" section. They are from sellers other than Amazon, and you can often find brand new books for a fraction of the cost.
#6. I try to pick up every night. Not all-out clean. Just pick up. And Finn is now old enough to help. Threatening to throw away his toys helps jump start things. And I am never above bribery. :)
My pick-up secret: Use a small laundry basket while you go around picking everything up, then sort it all once the floor/table/counter is clutter-free. Instant gratification will start to set in. And if you have to, you can stash that laundry basket in your bedroom if
someone's coming over eminently.
#7. I do something completely indulgent every day, even if it's for 15 minutes. (Note that "indulgent" is all relative to situation.) Lately it's been watching an episode of Glee every day. Sometimes it's just reading all of the new blog updates on my blog roll. Or eating 5
spoonfulls of
Nutella. (Trust me, you'll burn it off with #8.)
#8. Clean the house "for
reals" once a week. I recently tried the steps on
THIS SITE. It seems like common sense, but I'm telling you—it works! It also helps that we have
itty bitty living space right now.
My cleaning secret: The Steam Shark Mop! OR an
iRobot if you're elite.
#9. I try not to beat myself up about things. I use TV as a babysitter so I can take a shower. I don't worry that my kids are going to wither away if they eat mac n cheese or Wendy's some nights. It's hard to orchestrate real mealtimes for 2 kids at different eating stages and myself, and a husband that has a sporadic schedule. There's a lot of eating in stages. I'm OK with that right now. As long as they eat.
#10. I usually hire a sitter once a week for 3 hours (justified by my online work habits). It means I can run errands, or do secret "me" things. This is a recent addition. I live for Tuesday mornings. It makes the rest of the week a little more manageable.
Oh, and I don't sleep.
What are YOUR tips? I would LOVE to know!
POST EDIT: I am happy to report that for a few months now, I have been doing at least one load of laundry every day. Usually one light, one dark. I fold it right out of the dryer. And it means smaller loads, as well. Then I leave it to put away either on Sunday, or when I have a free moment, or the rare inclination to do laundry-ish things (like I said: RARE). I also love the new dryer "bars" that stick to the inside of the dryer (similar to a dryer sheet). My clothes are SO much easier to fold/wrinkle free now that I use that. It's even better than dryer sheets. Bounce makes them. Find them
HERE.